“The sweetness of one sided Love is more than sugar”
The moment I heard those words, my confidence level & my dedication towards you hiked far more then it was few months before.
I made myself completely ready to experience the sweetness. However, I never knew whoever spoke that shit, fooled me completely.
Our story started when I was completely broken due to the tragedies happened in my life. This was the first mistake from my Side: I thought it was love to me, which consoled me this much, but actually, it was only SYMPATHY
Yes, I loved you more than anyone could do anyone (I am sure all the lovers think same)
You felt that I am very rigid & arrogant & I would do anything to complete my ego. No, you were wrong; my behaviour was desperate on you because I was madly in love with you L
I know you have been very practical thinking girl,, but in your case I never wanted to be practical, whether you think this is my immaturity or ego but this is fact.
The Mentor of my life once told me story
| A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it, God had put all the human “qualities” in a separate room. Since all the qualities were bored, they decided to play hide & seek. “Madness” was one of the qualities and he shouted: “I want to count, I want to count!” since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek “Madness”, all the other qualities agreed. Therefore, “Madness” leaned against a tree and started to count: “One, two, three…” As “Madness” counted, the qualities went hiding. “Treason” hid in a pile of garbage” Lie,” said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake. Madness continued to count “… seventy nine, eighty, eighty one…”
By this time, all the qualities were already hidden-except “Love “. For stupid as “Love” is, he could not decide where to hide. Moreover, this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide “Love”.
“Madness”: “…ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven…” Just when “Madness” got to one hundred…”Love” jumped into a rose bush where he hid. (That’s the reason why people express love by giving roses)
And Madness turned around and shouted: “I’m coming, I’m coming!” As Madness turned around, “Laziness” was the first to be caught, because “Laziness” was too lazy to hide. “Madness” searched madly and found them all – except Love. Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, “Envy” whispered to “Madness” “You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush.” (That is the only thing you can expect from envy right?)
“Madness” Jumped on the rose bush and he heard loud cry. The thorns in the bush had pierced “Loves” eyes.
From that day, Love is blind.
Hearing the commotion God came into the room and saw what had happened. He got very angry and cursed “Madness” and said since “Love” has become blind because of you…you shall always be with him”
So on, Blind Love is always accompany with “Madness” |
Baby after reading this story I am sure you will understand how much my love was (is*) true for you.
I can never forget what love you gave me, you taught me that whatever I had for someone was never a love but now what I have on you is love.
I know I used very harsh language full of bad words while speaking with you, but you never realised that how much my love paining because of you, how much it is itching me inside
I know how rigid I have been for you, how much possessive I was for you, but you never found the roots of that possessiveness
Don’t take me wrong that I had nothing for you that’s why broke up
I can give my life for you, but as far as compromise is concern never ever think I will do 1% also.
It has not yet been a week of our break up,
Still, I am completely finished from inside I have nothing to express, I want to go to the peak of Himalayas where no one can see or listen to me & there I want to scream & cry like mad, that much I am finished or depressed
There is no one whom I can cry about my pain, today no one knows I loved you so much, I can never even tell my friends that how much I am crying today because I never told them How much I loved you.
You have to laugh more in public when you have more pain to hide.
Probably, that is the reason why I keep cracking jokes more then needed.
I am done with these living, I cannot live & I am suiciding now (Ohh Wait! I cant do that also, As you only gave me this life & I cannot take it without your permissionL)
I know you won’t trust me (never you did) but you were the only hope of mine
Today on Valentines, I am ready to start a very new life as I cannot stay more so..
I very intelligent guy said,
“Never cry for the one who left you, move on to the one who deserves you”
Yes, I am ready to move on in my life now..
Not with someone else…
Not with My Career
Not with something else
I am going to move on with your memories & thoughts
I know you will think it is filmy but it is true!
I will make my world full of your thoughts
I will make a club, which will known as Climax of romance in the country
Where lovebirds will come & celebrate Valentines all 365 days
I will make 2 lovers meet & take their blessings which will help me one day reuniting with you
Let the years & years pass I will still be singing “Channa Mereya” in the club
One Day… Your Voice from heart will tell..
“I cannot believe you still have so much love for me inside”
& Yes! That Day I will end up my story
That day I will smile & celebrate my Valentines
That day I will Authorise this statement
“The sweetness of one sided Love is more than sugar”